Faith Identity

Herein lies my problem: I think I'm trying to be someone I'm not. I'm trying too hard to be more faithful and to emulate people I've seen at Catholic conferences and/or people I follow on Twitter. They just seem to have it all put together, so sure of themselves, so trusting and secure in their faith. I constantly wonder "how did they get to that point? how are they so sure of themselves and their faith? why aren't I so sure?"

But I realized tonight, while thinking and inwardly struggling, that I'm not them. My life is so different from those people I look at and admire. Yes, we all share the same faith and the same God, but I am my own person. I have my own hopes and dreams and prayers. I don't have to pray for X, Y, & Z in order to be a faithful and loving person. I don't have to pray a certain way or be interested in all the same things to be secure in my faith. I used to be a lot more certain in my faith than I am now. I think part of my problem is that I started comparing myself to all these people and I stopped being so concerned with my own faith life. I need to focus on me. I need to change how I view people and their faith as well as how I view my own. This is my life. I don't need to compare myself to people. I shouldn't. Because when I do, I only end up doubting myself and losing sight of what really matters: myfaith relationship. As much as it's nice to know that others are growing in their relationships with the Lord, that's their business, and I need to worry about mine.